The Fork in the Road

What it look like good folk? It's ya square Dr. Steezenstein...F Steez if you nasty. How yall doing. I had planned on dropping a double feature last week. But I didn't feel like it(blame my head not my heart). I do have a lot of shit I want to touch on...but I'm still formatting the thoughts. Yall know me, maybe you'll get a blog on it, maybe not. Its officially spring time here in Philly...and you know what that means....Its cold as SHIT!!!! But enough about me...yall came for these here chronicles...so lets get on to them...Shall we?!?!?!

So...what has happened since we last spoke...oh yeah...everyones favorite hoodrat/baby mama/check bitch...BT has sued yours truly for Child Support. LOL. Aint that about a bitch treachery? Without getting too into the legalities...the treacherous bitch in question is saying I abandoned her and she cant take care of HERSELF, and is seeking to reap the "economic benefits" of being my wife. What economic benefits? Ma Steez, Dunndada, and the homies held me down when my square paycheck didn't stretch in the elastic fashion that she needed it to. But this blog is not only for me...but for squares in my position.

Look at the pic above....there he is, my idol, Rae Carruth. A man that had had enough and decided he wasn't gonna take anymore. LOL. Nah. But real rap, how many guys have had those same thoughts? Right or wrong. I know some of the shit that I dealt with, with BT, in some Islamic countries I would be legally bound to kill her. But here in the U.S. I can't even smack the bitch. But what I want to speak about is the fork in the road. The point before the eventual slapping or killing(depending on your location). 9 times out of 10 the fork comes before you put your dick in the broad. That moment that every man reading this has had. You're holding the condom...looking at the bitch...looking at the condom...looking at the bitch. Then you hear her say some bullshit like "you can go raw". 8 pumps and 45 seconds later(don't judge me), you're sitting there looking like Tobias Beacher in the pod with Schillinger on some "what the fuck just happened" shit. At this point you are past the fork.

All jokes aside, every man is face with choices when dealing with a broad. Those blatant should I, shouldn't I moments. In reality you probably get hit with SEVERAL of them over a period of time. I guess nature knows men are stupid and will keep showing us that there are other options. In any event, I know there are times when you are hearing two voices...one of a treacherous bitch...the other of your mom, brother, priest...Sonic the hedgehog...fuck it...I don't know...but all I know is don't just dismiss that other voice because the bitch you are currently hunched over is telling you its okay. It could be a matter of life and death......

Oh...one more thing...I think back to when people would ask me "how did you know that she(BT) was the one for you" I would wax poetically...but a lot of times I would say some bullshit like "I just knew" or "I felt it in my gut". Now, I'm a lot fatter now than I was when I got married...but lookin in a mirror...my gut and my dick aren't all that far apart....yet my gut and heart are pretty far...and my gut and my brain? forget about it....So I wonder where I really felt it? Whatever part it was...is most likely joining up with the other parts of me that are wondering how I can acquire a firearm, getaway car and alibi.....

I'm out

A Wise Woman Once Told Me...

What it look like good folk? Its ya favorite square Steez, back at you with some chronicles. Fresh off a little stay-cation here in the illadelph. The past few days have had me preparing for a fall without football...what can I do? Maybe yall can get at me with some suggestions. Anywho, lets get down to bidness as I spit these here Chronicles....shall we?!?!?!

"The grass is always greener on the other side. What most people don't know is that there is shit in it too". This is a paraphrase of a saying that a wise woman told me. I find it to be very true. Nothing is as good as it seems. But, what happens when you notice the shit? In other words...when you see something is fucked up...how do you react? The majority of you that read this, have either not seen me in years. Or never met me in person. So aside from reading these words whenever I decide to drop them, you have no idea how deep the rabbit hole known as BT goes. Well, let me learn ya. Since the time that the whole saga with Bitch Treachery began, I have been chipped away at, emotionally, mentally, financially, and physically. Aside from gaining over 100 pounds during the course of my sham of a marriage. My emotional and mental fragility of the time led me to care less and less about my physical appearance. This is no feel sorry for Steez party....I'm feeling like a million bucks. But I'm just setting the table.

It was brought to my attention recently by someone close to me that during my moments of most turmoil, there were people that found humor in my unfortunate situation. Now, at first I brushed this off. But after some more thought it kinda angered me. Not because of who said anything about me. They can all kiss my ass and write a love song about it. But the reason I was perturbed is because, if people had known what I was going through would they still have mocked me? These particular people? Probably. But the average person? Do we really sit and think about the next person before we cast our judgment? No matter how correct it may be on the surface. I hear a lot of bullshit come out of peoples mouths on a daily basis. But the problem comes when the target of the criticism reacts.

"You don't know what I been through....Hell, I might go through you"(c) Andre 3000
More people should heed this line. Lobbing criticism at the wrong person can be fatal. In this era of hypersensitivity about EVERYTHING...fucking with someone with an actual problem is damn near suicidal. Take me for instance. When I was staying with BT, I liken every day that I was there to a war vet living behind enemy lines. Anything could have happened at any time. When I think about the mindset that I carried into every day...it gives me chills. Would you fuck with a shellshocked 'Nam vet? Bottom line, I don't cry any tears for the bully that gets his eye blacked.

When its all said and done...people are gonna be malicious to other people. And those other people are gonna occasionally fuck up their offenders. What we all need to know is...The edge is closer for a lot people than you may think. Go listen to Melle Mel before pushing them....

I'm out

Which Way is Up?

What it look like good folk? You know who it is. If not, allow me to introduce myself..My name is Steez...and I'm a square. Good evening family. I'm sitting here 2 hours out the gym, and still sweating. Aint that a bitch(oops...can I say that word?..I'll explain later.) Anywho...not much going on over here...so lets get down to these chronicles...shall we?

So this morning on my way to work, I flip past the Star and Bucwild show. They were discussing this song "Open Letter to Lil Wayne". I listened for a minute, but since I didn't know what the fuck they were talking about it was boring so I changed to ESPN sports radio. Well, thanks to the internet, I saw a lot of my facebook friends put the video for this song up on their pages. My brother also personally emailed me a link to the video(Good look Dunndada). Well for those of you that haven't seen the video or heard the song...its 2 little girls(ages 10 and 9) airing their grievances with Mr. Dwayne Carter, finding fault with his misogyny, materialism, and drug use and references. Basically, they rehashed any argument that has been lobbied against hip hop from all of its detractors for the past 20 years. Now, I am in no way knocking the little girls for speaking up on a topic they feel strongly about. Actually, I commend them for that. But its the grown ups that I have a problem with.

"9 millimeter/and meat cleavers/in two seaters/I don't blame you/I wouldn't let Hailey listen to me neither". This is a line from Eminems song "My Dad's Gone Crazy". In this line he is basically making fun of all the idiots that let their kids listen to his painfully adult content, then turn around and blame him for them acting like adults and doing wild shit. This is actually my favorite line of his. Not because of the flow...not because of some wordplay...but because of the honesty. In this letter to little wayne, the girls reference his daughter. Something about her being a queen and him not calling her a bitch. LOL. I would wager that his daughter RARELY hears any of the music that has made her a young millionaire. But for some reason, the girls that wrote this song know a multitude of his lyrics. See what I'm getting at? I am no Lil Wayne fan, but hey...he makes music that people like. He makes music for adults. Kids shouldn't be subjected to what he's saying. And if they are? Buyer beware....If your kid stumbles upon your porn stash(don't act like you don't have one)...Do you get mad at Lexington Steele? No...just hide that shit better next time.

Next, The word BITCH....honestly, us as black people need to get the hell over this one. Well in particular, black women. If you're walking down the street and you hear someone say "murderer!!!" do you answer them? Well, if you've never killed anyone I would hope not. Listen, just because YOU aren't a bitch, doesn't mean bitches don't exist. And guess what...I've met more girls that I'd like to call bitches than ones I would refer to as queens. Sorry. This is not to say that dudes should just be calling all women bitches...but really? Who cares? If you aint a bitch, don't answer to the name.

In the song, the young women cite Lauryn Hill, Erykah Badu, and I think India.Arie as inspirations. See, this is a fuckin problem to me. This goes to show that too many people are judging books by the cover and not the words inside. Is Lil Wayne an idiot pretty much any time he gets in front of the camera? Yes. Are his lyrics inane to the point of being insulting? Absolutely. But do we know anything about his personal life? Not really. One thing I can say about him is that from everything I've seen, he is a pretty good father. Now...lets address Ms. Hill. Yeah, she sings a lot of pretty songs. Sips tea, and seems righteous. But lets be honest...she is a woman that has had long term relationships with TWO married men, having children with one of them. Somehow, this turned out to be the mens fault...fair enough. Now on to Miss "on and on Badu". This is a great singer, beautiful woman, that has 3 children by 3 different men, all out of wedlock. Now the wedlock part is neither here nor there. But, I could wager that if you went through history and looked up a bunch of Queens, not many are gonna be popping out kids for every nigga she meets with a nice smile and a record deal.

In closing, props to any person that stands up for whatever they believe in. But before you subject everyone else to it...it would be best to do a little homework first

I'm out....